Giving Up the Chase

Yesterday Rich and I hugged Sarah good bye as she got on a plane to visit her mom in Iowa.  Bella went to her dads and Rich and I headed to Santa Barbara for a couple of days.  I can’t remember the last time we went away together.  It seems that with his work and my work and our kids our only trips are to Iowa to see family.  This was a much needed get away.  We are staying in this adorable bed and breakfast very near State Street.

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I just love old buildings and quaint things.  This town is full of them.  When I was little and went to visit my Grandma in Burlington, Iowa, a river town full of old houses, I would make my grandparents just drive me around so I could look at all those houses.  I would imagine what they look liked inside, and I had a few favorites that I said I would own when I grew up.

I guess all I can do now is try to stay in as many as I can.

Last night consisted of an amazing dinner at Louie’s California Bistro.

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Rich had pork tenderloin, garlic mashed potatoes, and sautéed spinach.

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I had the line caught sea bass, mushroom risotto, and french green beans.

Oh my.

Our table was configured so we couldn’t really take a selfie so I apologize for the separate pictures.

As I was sitting there enjoying the amazing weather on the veranda of this great restaurant, I had one of those moments that I just wished I could stop time.  I just wanted to freeze everything around me so I could really look at my surroundings and take it all in.  I just wanted to stop chasing time for just a little bit.  I am not so selfish that I want to stop time often, but sitting there with Rich in that moment I just wanted it to stop.

After dinner we took a walk downtown.

We stopped in an Irish pub to have a drink and ended up watching a bit of the ESPY awards.  Jack Bauer (aka Keifer Sutherland) came on to award the Jimmy V Award for Perseverance to Stuart Scott, an ESPN anchor who is fighting cancer.  I love Stuart Scott.  I was a huge fan of Sports Center and all those initial anchors, Dan Patrick, Keith Olberman, Craig Killborn, and the like.  Stuart was especially so funny and so knowledgeable.  I was sad to see him so frail looking.

I remember when I was faced with the diagnosis that I had cancer I thought a lot about Jimmy V’s famous words.  “Don’t give up don’t ever give up”.   I really have adopted that attitude personally and try really hard to get that message across to my kids and my students.

It was really hard to watch Stuart Scotts package right before he got the award.  Seeing him in doctor’s offices and hospitals awaiting news on his condition.  Watching his family and his daughters talk about how much they love him and support him during this battle.  Ever since I was faced with that prognosis, oh so many years ago, and knowing that my family history is ridden with this horrible disease I have always felt that cancer has been chasing me.

In his acceptance speech Stuart Scott said “Even if you die you beat cancer by how you live, why you live, and in the manner in which you live.”

I realized, in that moment, that all I can really do is try my best to do those things.  When you break down the how you live, why you live, and in the manner in which you live you realize that you have a lot of power.  I don’t need to chase time, and I don’t need to keep looking over my shoulder.  I just need to take care of the things I have the power to take care of.

Thank you Mr. Scott for reminding me of those things, for being brave, and for never giving up.

Here is his speech and further down the page Jimmy V’s speech from 1993.  You really need to hear it.  Really.

More later, from sunny (or cloudy at the moment) Santa Barbara

Amy

 

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